10th day...as worse as yesterday

Nothing to write anymore cos I was as worse as yesterday. Felt like calling him so much that my heart starts to pump fast again and my body is vibrating. People can't see but I can feel it. Just felt like I am not myself anymore, physically. I told my friends this before but they don't understand how I felt. Anyone understand? The feeling is like when you are walking you don't feel like you are controlling your legs. I guess I should have some rest.